2015 has been a really bad year, I did wrong things, and I made the wrong choice, walked the wrong direction and screwed up my life.
I have never thought that I would have to face this in my adulthood. I am on the path to forgive myself, because if I don’t forgive myself first, I would never love myself nor others.
I am responsible for my choices and hence now I am facing the consequences.
I still have nightmares and it has been going on for more than half a year, really hope these will go away soon so I can sleep properly.
After this October, I will be on a different journey, especially with my new cert, I can finally work on my goals and plans. :) can’t wait to start working and start buying furniture for the house. I would have to move out soon and to be honest, I’m really upset about it because I thought my grandma could be more supportive and understanding. But hais what to do..
I didn’t talk about it in my blog as I’m not comfortable with it yet. I don’t think I will especially go talk about this, shall just go with the flow.
I’m definitely looking forward to the future; I believe it will be much better and I will be happier, even though there will be more duties and responsibilities for me to take up.
I want to be a better person and a good ****.