Boy oh boy, the clocks go tick-tok-tick-tok and the precious time you lead day by day just pass by. We often have times we wished the day past faster and often we sit down and wonder, "What have I even achieved in this past year?". Well, that's human. We often take things we have for granted and often felt we don't want them.
Motivation, you'll say, it's within you. But when it comes to the day you are all free from work, lazing on your house couch, you realised you just want to LAZE and not move. And slowly the bright sunny day outside becomes gradually dark and here goes your rest day. And what you achieve? Nothing but wasting a day. Sad to say, humans are like this. And right from the day I'm back in Singapore, my motivation and energy level has really reached rock bottom low. With the health that does not adapt 100% well to Singapore and the totally self-discipline schedule I have to myself and only myself is to tell myself what to do for the day has came crashing cause I too used to work on normal office hours back then. And being income-less without a proper job, all I live on now is blogging earning which pretty much a tiny fraction of what I was earning before. Well, earn less, spend less than.
I don't deny I struggled my 1/2 of 2015 and I did suffered a breakup from who was supposed be my fiance to be that time. Well, heartbreak, weak and mentally tired was I. I still have to stay firm.
After what had happened on the last few hours of 2015 and the first 2 days of 2016, I decided I have to wake up! No more being a girl who aimlessly thinks he is going to reconcile with you to begin with. Cause I am human and I need my life back!
I wanted alot of things when I was stepping from 2014-2015 but well, it did not went so well. So I narrowed down to more generalised things for 2016. And here are the 3:
1. CLEAR
Yes, despite clearing alot of clothes in 2015 and having 3 fleas in 6 months, I can say I'm still pretty clustered with alot of stuff! Alot of them I felt doesn't suit me any more and I felt I want more simplicity in my daily outfit thus they are to the to-go boxes. I managed to clear most of my things that I brought back from Cambodia but still I have tons left. Well, too many things and too little space. I'm thinking of a flea market every month to speed things up!
2. SLEEP
Some of you might know from my social media and my blog that I suffered from bad bad insomnia. I guess stress and some bad cells from my ex-bf imparted them to me. So I suffered badly too. Well, blame no one but I just felt my head was full of him and I didn't accept that we broke off. I kept thinking we had that one bit of chance. But well, the first 2 days of 2016 was the worse day of my life to be honest and that showed me clearly that we will never ever had the chance together anymore. He changed and I still kept asking myself why? But I guess it's just time for me to move on.
3. PLAY
YES! Just strap securely on the harness and let my lungs out with a thrill ride! I want to smile like I used to. And not silently cried while I sleeping beside him or walking behind him. No point. Make myself a fool. I deserve to be happy. And I deserve to be loved by people around and not live in isolation.
So what do you want for 2016?