As cliché as it sounds, the support of my family keeps me going. The feel of wanting to support them and act like an adult, the thought of wanting to give my parents a better life, and the thought of a better life and future for myself.
Life hasn’t been smooth for me.
I lost a lovable pet dog due to old age, I lost a family member in an accident and my family was in debts due to business failure when I was still schooling.
Sometimes I wonder, like everyone else, I am only a normal being. Why do I have to go through all these when others don’t? Why must I feel more pain than other beings? Are we not equal?
At the end of the day, I can only tell myself that nothing is equal in this world.
I remembered how my dad managed to clear off the debts of six figures all by himself and how he never let us suffer during those days. Even though I was still young, I could remember all the little efforts and stuffs he did. I was super touched then. He is simply my one and only role model. This is also probably why I tend to dote on my dad slightly more than my mom.
So whenever I am at the lowest point of my life (although I always feel that I am always at the lowest when I am sad LOL), I will allow myself to cry it all out; cry it out for the entire night and wake up with a brand new start.
Now, when I meet a setback, I will remind myself that there are countless of people out there who are more unfortunate than me. Rather than counting whatever bad that comes along, I have learnt to look at the brighter side of life and count the blessings I get.
For now, I am thankful to have met James. Although my parents play a major impact on my life, he is also here to contribute to the willpower of staying strong and happy.
So in simple, just smile. There is always a rainbow at the end of every rain. Remember, it can’t rain forever :)
