Happy Father’s day. Last weekend Simon and I were just talking about Father’s day for his father who is my father now too. :p We were thinking where to bring his dad for dinner but then I suddenly remembered that I should wish my dad happy father’s day too.
Well long story short. I saw my dad after 13 years. And before this 13 years, I don’t remember we hang out much either. It’s a very weird feeling to see your father that you have not contacted for 13 years. He looks the same surprisingly just slimmer.
And for the first time in my life. I’m going to wish him Happy Father's Day. I don’t even remember wishing him happy birthday before. (maybe once?) The only thing that I still got is this photo where he celebrated my don’t know how many years old birthday with me.
I don’t know what I should be feeling after meeting him, initially I felt awkward then I feel normal. After that I felt weird then I don’t care anymore. At some point in time I actually thought that things might be better if we didn’t see each other again. But I know if I didn’t see him, I will be bothered for life too.
Other than meeting him I also saw my relatives and my step sister which is weird too at first. I was once very close with my step sister and now I’m also very happy to see that she has completed her diploma and working now. But sometimes it’s just hard to get close again when you haven’t been with that person for a super long period of time.
Even now I still feel weird that I have a dad. Because growing up I don’t talk about him. Yes I cried sometimes thinking about him but I don’t talk about him to people or my friends. And now when it’s obvious that yes my dad is there and yes you have a dad. It is just pure weird. LOL! I can’t think of another word to describe except for weird because I really feel this whole thing is just damn weird.
I think I have been avoiding them for a while now, but it’s also because I’m busy with my house, work and blog. LOL no time to think of such issues for the moment.
Even though so, even though I have conflicting thoughts and still very confused about this whole thing, I will still wish him this Sunday. I kinda envy all the protective fathers out there who always side their kids and be there for them but well I’m still happy with my life, Simon tey is like my dad too. :x
So before I end this post, Happy Fathers’ day to all the fathers! :D
